[Because it is. Which is why she'll say with deliberate coolness:]
I was chosen to be eliminated... probably two or three times, growing up. Obviously they were prevented, but two of those times were only because someone spoke up for me.
That's how they maintain peace in the villages. As the children grow up, they observe them and look closely at their skills and behavior. If anyone doesn't meet their standards, they're eliminated.
In my case, I was nearly eliminated as a child because my cantus was late to manifest. The other two times were for behavior, though someone else in charge stepped in and scolded the ones who decided that as being too hasty.
[She sighs. She's not even really eating anymore, either.]
But she was too late to act. By then, one of my friends had already been marked unnecessarily, so he and my best friend decided to leave the villages for good.
[Something that pretty clearly still weighs on her, with the way her eyes narrow, expression melancholy.]
Quick judgments like that have already led to too many peoples' deaths where I'm from when they didn't need to. I don't want us to make a huge mistake by doing the exact same thing here.
[ when oda said that it was too good to be true, he didn’t know what to expect what the catch would be.
but when saki explains, it’s clear from his shocked expression that he did not expect something like this to be the root of her society. ]
I see. [ he gulps, looking troubled by the confession. ] Your world makes any dystopian novel pale in comparison.
[ ... ]
To kill for a selfish desire or to kill for the sake of “greater justice”—I’ve always thought the latter was the worse of the two evils. But I’m guessing that for you it must look and feel the same.
That's right. Even if we think of it as being for a greater justice, why does that mean that killing needs to be the first answer?
I want to try to find a different solution. I don't want to become the kind of person who decides who lives and dies before trying to find a way where everyone can live.
I can't... forgive the people who already put us through that.
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...Were you... betrayed badly in the past?
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Usually they were just clients. I would deal with them easily, and that would be it.
[ he doesn’t think that he needs to explain how he dealt with them, so... ]
I had actually begun to trust him. Isn’t that ridiculous?
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...I don't think it is. He...
[She trails off, ever mindful of the microphones.]
...I don't think we can trust him. ["Completely," she mouths in addition.] But I want to keep talking to him.
I know I have to be careful. I've been through... something a little similar before. But I still want to see if he can be reasoned with.
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[ but he’s frowning, clearly troubled with that decision. ]
But as long as I’m here, I can’t forgive him. He broke people’s trusts and I can’t forgive that.
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I'm used to my movements being analyzed.
[But she actually falls silent again for a moment.]
...I told you a little about my home, right? About how peaceful it is.
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[ he nods ]
Seemed a little too good to be true.
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[Because it is. Which is why she'll say with deliberate coolness:]
I was chosen to be eliminated... probably two or three times, growing up. Obviously they were prevented, but two of those times were only because someone spoke up for me.
That's how they maintain peace in the villages. As the children grow up, they observe them and look closely at their skills and behavior. If anyone doesn't meet their standards, they're eliminated.
In my case, I was nearly eliminated as a child because my cantus was late to manifest. The other two times were for behavior, though someone else in charge stepped in and scolded the ones who decided that as being too hasty.
[She sighs. She's not even really eating anymore, either.]
But she was too late to act. By then, one of my friends had already been marked unnecessarily, so he and my best friend decided to leave the villages for good.
[Something that pretty clearly still weighs on her, with the way her eyes narrow, expression melancholy.]
Quick judgments like that have already led to too many peoples' deaths where I'm from when they didn't need to. I don't want us to make a huge mistake by doing the exact same thing here.
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but when saki explains, it’s clear from his shocked expression that he did not expect something like this to be the root of her society. ]
I see. [ he gulps, looking troubled by the confession. ] Your world makes any dystopian novel pale in comparison.
[ ... ]
To kill for a selfish desire or to kill for the sake of “greater justice”—I’ve always thought the latter was the worse of the two evils. But I’m guessing that for you it must look and feel the same.
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I want to try to find a different solution. I don't want to become the kind of person who decides who lives and dies before trying to find a way where everyone can live.
I can't... forgive the people who already put us through that.
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[ he doesn’t agree with it completely, but he sees where she’s coming from. ]
If you think it’s possible to find a way for all of us to live, then maybe there is. But I’ll let you guys handle Dazai—I can’t face him alone again.
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[Not arguing there.]
Just... try not to act rashly, okay?
I don't want to lose you either, you know.