[ oda shuts the water off. it’s not that he’s done washing—there’s still dirty plates that need attention—but he wants to force himself to give saki the proper attention. ]
I can’t promise you that. I don’t know if someone will take me out tonight or next week or the week after that... and making an empty promise would probably hurt you more.
[Her head dips down again, shoulders raised, tense.]
I'm just so tired of this. I don't want to keep losing people.
I don't want to lose anymore...
[And just like that, she can feel the moment when the emotions she'd kept so carefully level spill over. Tears spring into her eyes, and she quickly raises a hand to wipe them away.]
After this morning, that isn't really reassuring...
[After all, they can return so long as their souls aren't kept in this world by a shinigami or the like. She makes one more pass at the tears, scrubbing with the back of her wrists before giving a light shake of the head.]
That's probably as much as I can ask of you right now, though.
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there’s no need for her to know any of his ugly, unnecessary feelings. ]
I’ll do my best.
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Her head dips as she continues collecting pieces, stacking them as much as possible for easier carrying.]
I'm so tired of this.
[Even over the water, it's just loud enough to be heard. But she shakes her head, moving to dump the new collection on the counter.]
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[ oda shuts the water off. it’s not that he’s done washing—there’s still dirty plates that need attention—but he wants to force himself to give saki the proper attention. ]
I can’t promise you that. I don’t know if someone will take me out tonight or next week or the week after that... and making an empty promise would probably hurt you more.
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I never asked for a promise. People die. I know that. Sometimes, you can't-
[Her voice catches, and she has to try again.]
Sometimes, you can't save everyone.
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I'm just so tired of this. I don't want to keep losing people.
I don't want to lose anymore...
[And just like that, she can feel the moment when the emotions she'd kept so carefully level spill over. Tears spring into her eyes, and she quickly raises a hand to wipe them away.]
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[ oda’s expression softens when he sees the tears, a feeling of guilt surging from his chest.
he lifts an arm, wanting to reach out and hold her, but stops midway. ]
I’m sorry. I— you’re right, I know.
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Then try to live.
I know. I know we have to protect everyone we can. But can't you spare at least a little care for yourself, too?
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[ oda says this quietly with a sigh. it’s not like he ever thought he deserved something like that, especially after all he’s done in his past.
but he doesn’t want to see saki cry again, and especially because of him. ]
But I’ll do my best. I still want to go back home, after all.
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[After all, they can return so long as their souls aren't kept in this world by a shinigami or the like. She makes one more pass at the tears, scrubbing with the back of her wrists before giving a light shake of the head.]
That's probably as much as I can ask of you right now, though.