[There is a long pause there too. Given how much Saki is opening up, maybe it's safe for him to open up about his own insecurities too. But...is it really? Could the information be used against him later?
Dazai wouldn't be open like that, but this young man pretending to be Dazai...he just wants to be accepted. It's lonely, secluding himself like this.]
It's...not safe to name them anywhere. One of them is still alive for certain, and I don't want her to be collateral damage if this all comes falling down. If we make it out of here, I'll tell you all of their names.
...
You know, it's a good thing I'm just as stuck here as the rest of you. I might lose my nerve if I had an easy way out.
The second part gets some wry amusement from her, however.]
People back home used to say I was brave, but honestly? The only reason I survived all the things I did was because I had to. Satoru and I- oh, Satoru Asahina. He's the only one left in the villages with me. Anyway, Satoru and I ended up involved in a queerat war by accident when we were twelve. I can't even count the number of times we nearly died.
I was scared the whole time. I thought the queerats would kill me, or we'd be crushed underground... even though it was only a few days, I was terrified. But I couldn't just stop, either.
Somehow, we kept on the move and made it out alive. Sometimes... that's all you can do.
[It's a solid message, honestly. Dazai isn't exactly a brave hero, he's just a scared kid trying to do what he can to make the world a little better. Someone like him does need encouragement from time to time.]
...yeah. I think I can do that. I mean, I don't have much of a choice. None of us do. But between 'keep going' and 'give up and die', I think I'll choose the first one.
[He doesn't have much, but at least he has the determination to keep going.]
[He absolutely lets her hug him, and he even hugs her back. He's not from bonobo-society, but he grew up with parents who hugged him a lot, and he misses that kind of contact.]
[There is a long pause, and his voice is muffled by Saki's shoulder but should still be audible.]
I don't like not touching people. Hugs, hi-5s, whatever.
[It's a quiet admission, but it might explain some of the difficulties he has been going through. He's one to casually touch friends all the time, and he misses doing that.]
[It's okay, a hug is a hug regardless of the reason. So Dazai will stay like that for a little while longer yet, relishing the feeling as a reminder that they're still alive here.]
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[There is a long pause there too. Given how much Saki is opening up, maybe it's safe for him to open up about his own insecurities too. But...is it really? Could the information be used against him later?
Dazai wouldn't be open like that, but this young man pretending to be Dazai...he just wants to be accepted. It's lonely, secluding himself like this.]
It's...not safe to name them anywhere. One of them is still alive for certain, and I don't want her to be collateral damage if this all comes falling down. If we make it out of here, I'll tell you all of their names.
...
You know, it's a good thing I'm just as stuck here as the rest of you. I might lose my nerve if I had an easy way out.
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Okay. I'll hold you to it.
[Because they will get him out. They have to.
The second part gets some wry amusement from her, however.]
People back home used to say I was brave, but honestly? The only reason I survived all the things I did was because I had to. Satoru and I- oh, Satoru Asahina. He's the only one left in the villages with me. Anyway, Satoru and I ended up involved in a queerat war by accident when we were twelve. I can't even count the number of times we nearly died.
I was scared the whole time. I thought the queerats would kill me, or we'd be crushed underground... even though it was only a few days, I was terrified. But I couldn't just stop, either.
Somehow, we kept on the move and made it out alive. Sometimes... that's all you can do.
Keep going.
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[It's a solid message, honestly. Dazai isn't exactly a brave hero, he's just a scared kid trying to do what he can to make the world a little better. Someone like him does need encouragement from time to time.]
...yeah. I think I can do that. I mean, I don't have much of a choice. None of us do. But between 'keep going' and 'give up and die', I think I'll choose the first one.
[He doesn't have much, but at least he has the determination to keep going.]
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Good. None of us "contestants" want to give up, so you don't give up either.
[But then her expression turns serious.]
Even if it means you have to act cruel. If you have to be "mean" to me on the cameras, don't hold back.
I'm not a very good liar, but I'll do my best.
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She'll pull him into a hug, if he'll let her.]
You won't. I know you won't.
[Her voice is soothing - an attempt to comfort them both.]
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...Do you want me to stay with you for a while? While the cameras are still...
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[There is a long pause, and his voice is muffled by Saki's shoulder but should still be audible.]
I don't like not touching people. Hugs, hi-5s, whatever.
[It's a quiet admission, but it might explain some of the difficulties he has been going through. He's one to casually touch friends all the time, and he misses doing that.]
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What a coincidence. It's the same for me.
[If for wildly different reasons, but she's been missing it sorely, too.]
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