DAZAI CATCH ALL

[allmyfriendsaredead]

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[guileturncoat]

[...oh.]

Ha! I suppose you're right there. It's too bad that I'm difficult to work with.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

Excuses already?

[guileturncoat]

I'm not saying no. Just that I'll be difficult to work with.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[She fixes him with a Look because that doesn't sound at all what he was saying, but it seems she'll let it slide for now.]

Well, since you're sort of on this side, can I ask you a little more about yourself?

I realized I've spent most of this time trying to convince you to help us when I didn't even need to.

[guileturncoat]

It depends on what you have to ask. I won't answer certain questions.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[Hmm.]

Your favorite things.

[guileturncoat]

'Things' is a very broad category.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

Is "food" easier? Just tell me what you like that doesn't include people.

[guileturncoat]

Aaah, Saki-san is so difficult to please!

I suppose I like science fiction, and reading. And video games too.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

You're the one who makes it so difficult to get to know you.

[Huff!]

I'm surprised you didn't play video games with everyone, too.

[guileturncoat]

Because I would beat them all, duh.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

Ohhh? You're really that good at them?

[Saki




You are terrible at video games. You have no room to sound unconvinced here.]

[guileturncoat]

I'm the best among my friends.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[...]

Do you mind telling me a little about them?

[guileturncoat]

Sure, I guess? But I'm not going to tell you their names.

One is a pretty nice girl, we've been friends for ages now. She's not one to be the center of attention, but she has a lot of sass in her. Definitely one of the funniest people I've ever known. You might like her, actually, I bet you two would get along.

1/2

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[She tilts her head slightly.]

Are names really an issue? Just like you, I don't make a habit of watching other peoples' stories, so it isn't like I would know.

2/2

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[But- wait.

Huh?]

...Someone said you didn't think you would make any friends in the next eight weeks.

[At the time, she assumed it was because he just didn't have any friends other than Oda - not to mention the whole despicable person thing.

But if he had another friend already...?]

[guileturncoat]

[Look at that frown on his face. Look at it.]

Just because it takes time for me to make friends doesn't mean I'm friendless.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[She totally assumed he's friendless.]

Then why is it such a big deal if you make a friend here or not?

[guileturncoat]

Because one, if anyone I make friends with dies then it's going to hurt a lot.

And two, some of the people here are rude.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[Oh.

Her eyes go dark at that.]

So you're just afraid of loss.

[guileturncoat]

Of course I am. I'm only human, just like-

[He was about to say 'the rest of you', but there are some non-human members to their group. So he'll amend that.]

I'm a person, just like everyone else here.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

[She falls silent for a moment, her expression sullen.]

...There are worse things than losing someone important to you.

[She lived that reality for twelve years.]

[guileturncoat]

It's not a competition of what is the 'worst', Saki-san. I'm a coward who hates feeling pain of any kind, and I try to avoid it as much as possible.

[allmyfriendsaredead]

I know that. [It's half a snap. Does she really?] But...

My memories are what I cherish most about my friends. And even if they've left me, at least I can still remember them and everything they meant to me before...

[Before they died. Before they left. But she never quite finishes that sentence.]

...I am who I am because of them. And some of my memories were already stolen away from me once. [Shun. Yoshimi. Reiko.] I can't stand the thought of never remembering them again, but...

The thought of never even knowing them is even worse. Because even when my memories were taken away, they affected me so deeply, there was still a hollowness left behind I couldn't ignore.