They're afraid. And they think that the best way to prevent their fears from becoming real is to control everything.

[Bitterness drips from her voice.]

...I was told once that each person with cantus has the same destructive power as a nuclear bomb, except we can "go off" more than once. They were trying to prevent that situation.

But... after everything they did to us, I can't forgive them, either.

[She doubts she ever will.]